Have you ever had one of those weeks where you wonder why you chose the career path you did? If its even a good move on your part. If loving a job is worth the low wages and the crappy attitude you get from some superiors (no, not all of the time but too often….)?? Don’t get wrong I love being a hairstylist. It has so many perks… Like meeting new people and having to listen to different cultures and languages and seeing how great some strangers you meet day to day can be truly amazing people. I love my clients. I love my coworkers but lately it is just getting the best of me. I don’t know if I just need a vacation or a change of setting… I’m just exhausted from not feeling good enough or appreciated. Maybe its just this week. It has been weird all over the place.
Recently moved in with my boyfriend, I cant seem to even grab at it yet honestly. Its something we have been talking about for months and thought of for weeks before it actually happened but it seems so strange to me. To do something that ive never before, like move in with my significant other. I’m super happy and on top of the moon about it… It just hasn’t all settled in yet…Maybe tomorrow when I get my room fully situated and put together. Just hoping I made the right move on this one, because I wouldn’t want to see anything happen to our relationship.
When do you WHEN that enough is enough? Since June 2013 I have been moping around like a loss puppy looking for answers as to why me and my ex-bestfriend had this huge falling out and why we no longer speak. I have re-read every message and went over the whole situation in my head… I just cant seem to find what im looking for. How many tears can one person cry over missing someone before they realize that said person is out of their life for a reason? That trying as hard as you dont wont change a thing? How do you know when to stop?! I cant… I cant keep fighting with my head and my heart on this one. My heart keeps telling me to try because the friendship was truly one of a kind. I will never have another friend in my life as close as that…. but my mind thats another story. My mind keeps telling me that im being a child, immature and pathetic. I guess its kind of like a breakup… when you miss someone and try and try and try to get them to give you one more chance.. Only it isn’t.
My heart is just feeling so crappy lately. I need summer to come now so I can get some sunshine and feel some good feelings for a change.. Been a long ass winter.